New Year, New Beginnings, New Goals and Old Goals. I'm entering a stage of motherhood that's foreign to me.Read More
It's January, just around the time I start to yearn for the world to wake up and shake out her glory.Read More
I tend to compartmentalize my life. I work and then I mother, and then I do the other things that help define the whole of who I am. But I find so much beauty in the moments I can grow these pieces of my heart together.Read More
I remember how Caroline cried when her mother lifted her flower crown onto her head, how she read the letter that Kyler wrote her, and hid into her dad as he walked her down the aisle.Read More
My sweet friend Jayne owns the most beautiful line of journals. I use the baby one for Nora and it's one my favorite treasures.
Trammie and Garvin were breaths of sunshine.Read More
From the first whisper of her presence, Nora was our surprise baby. She was nothing like her siblings, whose conceptions were meticulously charted and scientifically controlled in various sterile and lonely offices. Our journey to parenthood was long and lonely, measured in days, months, breaths, tears, years, and finally two miracles.Read More
Mari and Blake, from bride and groom, to models, to parents, to some of my favorite people, are absolutely doing this parenting thing right. It was such a treat to watch them love, love, love on their kids. You can see it. They find so much joy in parenthood, and it's inspiring to witness. Tantrums were had, there were tears, and it didn't matter, and didn't slow down their roll. Honestly, life isn't made of perfect moments. It's made of a whole lot of small, imperfect ones. Those are the ones we need to grab onto, because I tell you, every time you put away too small clothes, you get a little heartsick that this moment is gone. A new one is coming and it's pretty amazing too, but enjoy those little every day ones, because together they make a life.
Dreaming of summer days and fields of gold...
I was pulling images for a friend, and came across these, my very first shoot that I had put together with fellow artists. I was pregnant with baby number two, and there was a fire storm, literally raging all around us in the mountains and foothills. This was before flower crowns were really a thing and hand crafted the one Mari is wearing. I've since used it for a costume almost every year since. My husband make the cakes, and we rented a U Haul. I don't think we really knew what we were doing or what we were getting into, but I love the pictures still so much, years later. Trying something new, reaching out to locations, and not knowing if the whole shoot would fail, and riding the anticipation and excitement and pushing through all of that is both exhausting and exhilarating. But more than a pretty picture of pretty people in pretty places, I loved the camaraderie of a female team of artists. There was no competition or ego, instead a beautiful group of women inspiring each other to be our best. It was my first time working with many of them, but now I can call them friends, and that is my favorite memory of this day. Hot and sweaty, and grateful. A huge thanks to,
Sarah Winward: Florals
April Benincosa: HMU
Jayne Lever/October Ink: Paper
Mari and Blake Tengberg: Bride and Groom
Melissa Blackburn: Gown
There is one weekend where this tree blooms in full glory at the Salt Lake Temple. Erica and Tanner timed their wedding jussssstttt right. Today I'm grateful for the warm weather, spring that is just around the corner, and sunshine clients that are pure joy.
Venue: This is the Place | Dress: The Bride Shop | Florals: Amy Curtis | Invitations: Piper Morgan | Cake: Cakes de Fleur | Videographer: David Perry | Bridesmaids Dresses: ModCloth | Groom's Suit: Express | Rentals: Rent Event Utah and Diamond Rental | Groom's Tie: Waltman Co
There is sunshine and warmth today, and it has started filling up the bits and pieces of my heart that lie dormant every year. It's going to snow again soon, but we are moving towards longer days, damp earth, and the messy, muddy stops and starts of Spring.
This little mini session is one of my past couples, 8 years ago! It's such a joy to see Meghan and Cole's family grow and the love they hold between them. XOXO
Chelsea has been a part of my family's life since she was a little girl. First I taught her, then she watched my babies, and now she is married and living life with love and grace and kindness. I was lucky to photograph this beautiful ballerina for her wedding, as pretty as a fairy tale, but with all the strength of character of the best of heroines. We love you Chelsea!
Gown: The Perfect Dress Bridal ~ Florals: La Fete
I started this new website and blog last year, literally weeks before I had my third (final? tears) baby. It was, as with all things with me, emotional. The old website kept crashing, emails didn't make it through, I had to change. But I had a lifetime of my children on the other site. And I didn't have the technical knowledge (as always) to save it. I tried downloading several programs and I kept getting errors, and it was super confusing, and I was days away from having a baby. So, I did what any non-technical literate person would do. I screenshot the entire thing, love letters to my daughter, pictures of my new son (now 4 years-old,) and cried with frustration at my inability to properly capture and time. Sometimes I feel this immense responsibility of memory keeping, but then technology keeps changing, and I'm so slow to keep up. My first daughter's life is on a defunct Blogspot, and a defunct website. My son is on Instagram. Nora, I'm trying to be better, but third kid. She's a lost cause already, right?
All this to say, is somehow I started curating myself and cutting all the personal stuff out. It became overwhelming to keep up, and I was in the trenches with motherhood as it were, and it was easier to just pop up some pretty work, and call it good. But then I lost a little bit of me, the stories in my heart that were just as loud as ever, but not heard. This website is new, although I've been around a long time, and I now have another chance to figure it out, and make mistakes as I go, hopefully new ones.
This space is now going to be getting a little more personal, and mixing motherhood and life and my worries into this space, because it's mine and I want it to feel that way. I'm going to stop worrying if I'm mixing the right amount of personal with the right amount of business savvy. Let's be honest, I never had much business savvy to begin with. Instead, I had a whole lotta heart. I want to show that more.
And tying it back to that time, which these pictures all brought up, this was the last shoot I did before I had my baby last year (again, tears.) I was so pregnant and I was so sick. I had bronchitis and it was rough. Allison and I had this beautiful idea, percolating for years, and when we got our hands on a Leanne Marshall dress we ran/danced with it. Sometimes I feel like pictures like these aren't real. It's not real life to dress up in a flowing gown and dance with a beautiful bouquet of flowers. Sometimes it makes me feel like I'm selling false goods. But also, sometimes I think it's okay to dream a little bit--to immerse yourself in a little extra beauty. To buoy up your heart when it's cold and windy outside, when the world seems hard and extra grey.
So, here's to dreaming with one of my dear friends, to putting her talented Sophie in a beautiful gown. To having a few hours of creativity and inspiration, to re-committing to yourself as a woman, artist, mother, creator, dreamer.
This shoot is also in the beautiful pages of Belle Lumère. If you ever need a pick-me-up, seeing your work in print sure is a good antidote.
Florist/Stylist: La Fete | Gown: Leanne Marshall | Model: Sophie Baddley Studio: Charcoal Loft
This was my first Boudoir shoot, ever and I realized something during our shoot, a collaboration between women, me, Peggy and her support network. It wasn't just about beauty and style, which, let's be honest, the space was amazing and Peggy is absolutely gorgeous, but the juxtaposition of vulnerability and strength. I felt like I had a window into a intimate space, embracing all that is feminine and fierce. I felt so much beauty this day, inner shining bright.
If you would like to do a similar shoot or maybe something a little different, bridal boudoir, maternity boudoir, freaking awesome Mom who is killing it and being a woman boudoir, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org, and let's chat!
I fell in love a bit with Katelin when I first met her. More than her natural beauty, was her natural calm and sweetness. Her desire to bring together all of her and Tony's worlds, and honor the beautiful wedding location Zion National Park, intimate and grand. Bringing together friends and family in a beautiful Ceremony under a huge Cottonwood tree, along the Virgin river and red rock mountains, is a recipe for perfection. I was newly pregnant with my sweet surprise Nora, and I'll never forget this wedding, in the shadow of my favorite place on Earth, surrounded by people who loved and supported Katelin and Tony deeply. Their gorgeous wedding is currently on newstands in Utah Bride and Groom Magazine, and it's a stunning edition, filled with work from many friends! If you need a little inspiration, I highly recommend picking yourself up a copy!
If you are lucky you get to have a friend like Sarah in your life. She's always there for you, no matter what. She will check in when you are sad, remember important life events, and share her love of life. She photographed my last pregnancy and they are some of my happiest moments. I was honored to photograph her with her loves. Love you Sarah and family!
Sometimes you are given the opportunity to photograph couples that feel like family. Courtney and Josh are one of those couples. I had photographed both their sisters weddings, and have watched the families grow, and I feel so in love with them. I sometimes feel like they are my family and that's the best way to feel about those whose special memories are in your care. I want all that is good and beautiful for Courtney and Josh, and am incredibly grateful to share in their day.
Gown: Hayley Page from Alta Moda | Catering & S'more Bar: Lori Tolbert Catering | Videographer: Fielding Films | Venue: This is the Place Heritage Park | Flowers: Ella Rose Floral & Rachel Osguthorpe | Groom's Suit: Utah Woolen Mills | Rings: OC Tanner | invitation: Watercolor by Aimee Ferree, typography by October Ink | Music: Joe Muscolino HMAU: Natalie Cook and Brooke Cook